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9:33 p.m. - 2004-11-16 I work early tomorrow, but only for five hours cause I have class after that for like four. Sigh. The changes to the book are going well. Flowing all right. I finished the rape scene yesterday and took a break today. The rewrite of it was tough. The original write of it was hard, this one was more intense, more frightening, more real. I guess I'm not sure how this will change the story in the future, we'll have to see how it moves it down the line. I should really get some sleep. Haven't been sleeping nearly enough lately. Been working so much and worry about work so much that it's a non issue. But you know the world works better with sleep. Most of the time. I'm worried because I'm trying to fit into a place that I'm not even sure knows how to fit into itself. Everyone is so different, and really not willing to step outside their comfort zone. They don't get my jokes and seem to take the smallest things I say so seriously that they are almost insulted by things totally unrelated to them. Sometimes I'm not sure why I go through all I do. I guess money isn't as much of a throw away thing as I'd like to think. But man I don't know if it's worth all this. I just wanna write. Is that too much to ask?
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