10:54 a.m. - 2005-12-03
Long in coming
It's been a while since I've made an entry. It seems the older I get the busier I am. I've been promoted twice at the job. Not sure how I like the most recent promotion. But whatever I guess.

I am getting close to the end of classes for the semester. I guess working a full time job, part time job and going to school full time isn't such a smart thing. I've sorta fallen behind. I'm just praying to pass everything. Maybe being on my own isn't such a great thing. Sigh.

So I had an agent request my book. Hopefully they'll like it. Fate was against me when I tried to have it edited by several people. No one would get it back to me in time. Computer errors and such they claim. If it was really that bad you'd think they'd tell me straight right? I take critisism very well as long as it's detailed and not a stupid "I don't like it." And they have no reason.

I've not had much time to work on the recent book. Sad since I still love the idea a lot. It gets to days that I'm so tired from working and school and just sit in front of the tv to try to relax. But the mind never stops. Sadly. I'm always thinking of stories. I guess that's not a bad thing. Just unusual I guess, or so everyone tells me.

I really enjoy anime. The stories are very unique. They often inspire new ideas for stories in me. But I get so involved. It's crazy sometimes. My escape I suppose.

And here I sit, a snowy Sat morning, working at my day job 10-2 as an odd Sat. Bored out of my mind. Customers are really stupid today. A banker yelled at me for an incorrect printing on an order that we didn't even print for them.

I have one semester left in school if I pass everything this semester. Then I hope to move on to other things. I mean there has to be something else out there right?

The question that remains always is: am I happy? Is what I'm doing making me happy? The school aspect, no. Work and life in general, yes. Work is work, but it provides enough money to pay my rent, buy food and lots of entertainment. Well some entertainment. I think last night as I watched movies with my cats, it was the first time I'd felt alone in a long time.

It's the snow. I'm sure of it. It's been snowing all week and I'm just so affected by the cold and the lack of light and the never ending snow. Yeah, it's an excuse. An excuse to broad over stupid things. To be lazy. To be sad.

Actually I think it's sad to need an excuse to be sad. But then I'm a little different than most everyone else.

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